
Transgender Artist Model Michael Emery

Transgender Artist Model
22 years experince as a life drawing model
" A wanta be Transsexual "
I am 100% psychologically
feminized and emasculated
submissive homosexual


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The content is intended for educational, research and journaling purposes .
Much of the content is in Scenario Form
thus whether fact or fiction, is by interpretation.
If only; "How things could of turned out dilemma"
"Like a thought experiment of sorts"
or
" some aspects based on fact "
" A hodgepodge script "
"Like a Actor preparing for a script in order to be convincing"
"A Study and Outline for my Fiction Novel Terrace"
" As much as Life Drawing can express Reality, it can express Fantasy "
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contains nudity and sexual content

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FEBRUARY 19th, 2020
-The Life Drawing experience-
1997
Me introducing self
Figure Drawing Class Evokes Empathy

The model, Callista Womick, poses during the figure drawing class
Figure Drawing Class Evokes Empathy;
“Capture the balance of this pose,” Heddi Siebel says as she walks around the room. “Get the back, get the weight.”
Students stand around the model, Callista Womick, in a semicircle, facing easels with charcoal in hand. They draw in silence, with eyes flickering back and forth between their page and Womick. Some of their drawings will be quick, completed in 30 seconds, and others will be developed over the course of an hour.
Hired by the Office for the Arts at Harvard, Siebel teaches this weekly class in Currier Treehouse, which is open to all Harvard students. With multiple degrees in printmaking and years of artistic teaching experience at several universities, Siebel is now in her third year teaching “Figure Drawing,” a class that has run for over 30 years. She welcomes students with varying degrees of drawing experience, and emphasizes the empathy evoked by figure drawing, particularly through studying the nude model.
I found much joy in modeling, the comradery with individuals like myself whom love to draw, the atmosphere of coming together to practice and study . I think because I am so feminine and have always felt I should be female, life drawing allowed me in my mind to express my being different and feminine.



My dilemma has always been that I have always only wanted to be like a female sexually
Thus, I've always wanted the surgery in order to remove my penis,
so, I can truly look female receptive
I've always wanted a sex change, so I could have breasts and a vulva, I very much don't like having a penis




Once I started posing nude, my desire to get comfirmation surgery, that is to have my penis replaced with a female like vulva and get breast implants really became a strong desired.
How I wish I could look with a "zero-depth vulvaplasty"

"I've just always have only wanted to be a male's female sexual partner"
I first identified with the term "berdache" in the mid 1980's after reading about it, because I clearly have always wanted to be in the female-receptive role for males, I've always wanted to dress much more female like to show my status as " female-roled/receptive".
So my definition of a berdache is; " a female roled/receptive male who takes the passive/receptive role for a male partner ", as well as " assumes the dress, social status, and role of a female "

I've always dreamed of having my penis removed so I could have a female looking vulva, for me it is the way I feel I should look to myself.