Gender Identity Disorder / Gender dysphoria

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Or in a Song, maybe it should be called " Constant Craving"

Ever since my youngest memories I felt the need to be " Female like "

Since puberty not a day goes by that I don't need Affirmation of my female role and my "Femaleness"

And my greatest Affirmation came from my jack donkey lover and

partner Edward by him breeding me like a female and him taking me just as I am as his companion.

Yet the need for Affirmation comes in other ways such as being able

to be seen publicly in one's role.

Not a day goes by were I haven't wished to dress in a fashion publicly, that is in the way I wish to dress. " I feel female like so I wish to dress female like ".

Because I am so female like psychologically, I so much like to dress female like, I feel so much better when I can be as I am a dress as I am.

Yet for me to go out publicly dressed as photo below for example would be too dangerous / damaging in the society in which I live.

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Because I've been a female-roled zoosexual since age 13, and preferred to only have a 

intact male jack donkey Edward as my male sexual companion made things even more complex that would of been even more dangerous / damaging if known publicly.

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Gender dysphoria (GD) is the distress a person feels due to a mismatch between their gender identity—their personal sense of their own gender—and their sex assigned at birth.[5][6] The diagnostic label gender identity disorder (GID) was used until 2013 with the release of the diagnostic manual DSM-5. The condition was renamed to remove the stigma associated with the term disorder.- wikipedia

Though the above may describe a the condition of (GD),

 " Affirmation of one's gender identity, sexual identity is only way to live with it ! "

How the Societal shaming, non-acceptance of transsexuality

 

effects the intensity of one's Gender Identity Disorder is hard to say because there has never been a moment in my life were being a Male to Female transsexual type person has ever been accepted, and has always been shamed.

                                           And then being a Female-roled partner

                                           and being "bred" by both a jack donkey

                    and a male great dane further complicated Societal acceptance.

 

 

Because I have always only wanted to be the Female-roled, Female sexually receptive partner for a jack donkey or a Large Male dog like a great dane and live in a monogamous

relationship with them and under same roof so to speak.

One reason I never felt it was wrong to be in sexual relationship with my jack donkey partner Edward and then later my great dane partner Max was I very much knew they were breeding me just as they naturally would a female of their own species.

Only real difference was I couldn't get pregnant, the copulatory act was basically the same, other than that we had a very close loving relationship just as anyone has a close loving non-sexual relationship with their animal companion.

"Coming Out of the Closet"

Writing this journal has turned out as a very good Affirmation of my true identities,

                                      and serves as a method of " Coming Out " for me

 

                Writing this journal as a study for a testimonial type writing due to;

 

 

 

                     Lack of life Stories, Testimonials from

                                           homosexual transsexuals and zoosexuals

   After many years of intense research on the the topics of male to female transsexual

   and zoosexuality I have found very little in regard to writings like the following;

   Jennie June(autobiographer)

   " The Autobiography of an Androgyne, The female-impersonators

   June expressed a lifelong desire to be a woman, June consistently used he/him                   pronouns in reference to himself in his own writing. June wrote of feeling like a               combination of male and female

 " June published his first autobiography, The Autobiography of an Androgyne in 1918, and his second, The Female-Impersonators in 1922. This makes June one of the earliest instances of someone who is transgender or gender nonconforming in American history to publicize their own story. In June's preface to the book, June explains that he has kept diaries of his life and that his autobiography has been taken from those.

June organized the book into episode-like sections, wherein he discusses incidents in his life as well as his opinions on certain social matters.[39] June's stated goal in writing the book was to rally the support of Americans to create an accepting environment for young adults who do not adhere to gender and sexual norms, because that was what June would have wanted for himself, and he wanted to prevent them from committing suicide.[3] June discusses his desires, which he struggled with because they were so different to what was considered normal.

The memoir describes in detail many personal narratives as well as June's sexual encounters and desires, including the story of his castration, but also contains pleas for understanding and acceptance of "fairies". The Autobiography of an Androgyne also describes how June felt that he lived a double life in the sense that he was an educated, middle-class white male scholar, but also had intense yearnings for performing sexual acts that distressed him " -wikipedia

 " At eighteen, June became so depressed about being an invert that he sought medical help to make him feel like a "normal male." The two New York medical professors he went to first, venereologist Dr. Prince A. Morrow[5][19] (1846 - 1913) and then alienist Dr. Robert S. Newton[5][19][20] both saw inversion as a defect, and attempted for months to cure him of it by every known method. (Alienist was an early Victorian word for a psychiatrist.) June's treatments included drugs, hypnosisaphrodisiacs in the hope of making June attracted to women, and electrical stimulation of the brain and spinal cord (electroconvulsive therapy).[21] These treatments had no effect: June remained an invert, depressed, and also a nervous wreck from the drugs.[5] It is understood today that trying to make someone stop being LGBT (called conversion therapy) is not effective, and is even abusive "

                       " Wearing the Cage "

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Wearing a cock cage helps affirm my emasculation from maleness and show I have no desire to be like a male sexually and that I am female sexually receptive only.

I only wish now that I'd been posing nude for the last 25 years;

                                          " Only while wearing a Cage "

  Yet I was so fixated on getting the vulvoplasty surgery, thus      having a female like vulva, I didn't think to wear the cage. 

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Which I very much feel I should have a vulva and not have a penis

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A woman breast feeding two puppies while two Mexican peasants implore her to feed her baby.

Human–animal breastfeeding Wikipedia  

 

Human to animal breastfeeding has been practiced in some different cultures during various time periods. The practice of breastfeeding or suckling between humans and other species occurred in both directions: women sometimes breastfed young animals, and animals were used to suckle babies and children. Animals were used as substitute wet nurses for infants, particularly after the rise of syphilis increased the health risks of wet nursing. Goats and donkeys were widely used to feed abandoned babies in foundling hospitals in 18th- and 19th-century Europe. Breastfeeding animals has also been practised, whether for perceived health reasons – such as to toughen the nipples and improve the flow of milk – or for religious and cultural purposes. A wide variety of animals have been used for this purpose, including puppies, kittens, piglets and monkeys.